Jealously but not Jealous
I had a funny emotion today that I can not discribe.
As I watched 2 lovers this afternoon I noted their consideration of each other, their touching, smiles and giggles and I felt something.
I don’t beleive it was jealously….. I after all was not in a state at that point to be all cute and romantic.
To these lovers to world was nice, exciting and fresh. Nothing else mattered. I was then that I realised that I have only ever experienced that once. Now knowing someone for 7 years does have it’s benefits but the downsides are that I have only ever had that period of newness and heart fluttering nervousness once.
I want it. I want it so bad……. Bad enough to let go of him.
Maybe even forever
